As the calendar turned to 2025, I found myself yearning for something I hadn’t touched in months—my art. The past year was one of profound challenges, marked by the heartbreaking loss of my mother and the relentless responsibilities of caring for our sons. It was a year that tested every ounce of my resilience. Yet, as difficult as 2024 was, it also opened my eyes to the need for self-renewal, for rediscovering the parts of me that had been placed on pause.
This year, I’ve made a promise to myself: to return to my art studio practice, not just as a creative outlet but as a sanctuary for healing, reflection, and growth.
Grieving Through Creation
Losing my mother was an earth-shattering experience. She was not only a pillar of love and support but also an unspoken inspiration behind much of my art. Her encouragement to follow my passions and embrace creativity was woven into the fabric of our relationship.
In the aftermath of her passing, I struggled to find the energy—or the heart—to create. The studio became a place I avoided, as if stepping inside would unearth the grief I wasn’t ready to confront. But over time, I began to see my art as a bridge to her memory, a way to channel the emotions I couldn’t yet put into words.
This year, I am letting myself grieve through creation.
Balancing Motherhood and Selfhood
Caring for our sons has always been a joy, but last year it felt like I was giving from an empty well. Balancing their needs with my own emotional recovery was overwhelming. Somewhere along the way, I lost sight of my own identity outside of being a caregiver.
Returning to the studio is my way of reclaiming that balance. It’s about showing my sons the importance of pursuing passion and prioritizing well-being. By making space for my art, I’m teaching them a valuable lesson: that self-care is not selfish—it’s essential.
Finding Strength in Vulnerability
One of the most unexpected lessons I’ve learned is that there’s immense strength in vulnerability. Sharing my art—and the emotions behind it—feels daunting after such a tumultuous year. But I’ve realized that this openness can create connection and community.
This year, I plan to share more of my work, not as polished perfection but as a reflection of my journey. Art has always been deeply personal for me, and inviting others to witness that journey feels like an act of courage and healing.
What Lies Ahead
As I step back into the studio, I’m embracing a sense of curiosity and possibility. My studio practice is not just about creating art; it’s about creating space for myself. It’s about healing and honouring the past while moving forward with intention.
To anyone who’s navigating their own challenges, I want to say this: returning to what you love—no matter how long it’s been—can be transformative. The process might feel slow or imperfect, but it’s worth it. Creativity has a way of breathing life back into the parts of us that feel dormant.
Here’s to 2025: a year of hope, creativity, and rediscovery. If you’re ready to return to your passion, join me in taking that first step. Let’s create something beautiful, together.